Monday, 3 February 2014

Write It All Out

Okay so I should be asleep  and definately not blogging right now, but I feel like writing everything that is going on in my mind right now out on this little piece of the internet that I call mine. You might have guessed that this isn't going to be the average blog post. I've been dealing with some strange thoughts and feelings lately, and I figured that the only way to let them go is by writing them out. First of all I've been ill this week so that was a bummer, and when being ill there's nothing my brain likes more than to overthink every single aspect of my life. Second: on thursday I went back to school and it was the most hectic day ever. I had a bunch of extra rehearsals for the performance I had scheduled in the evening, I had two tests and I had to catch up on all my courses because I had been absent that week.
Nonethless, it was all worth it, since the audience was super enthusiastic about the little piece I performed together with some friends that night, and I got plenty of compliments and people telling me I had talent and all that jazz. Sounds great? Yeah I know, and it was, but the thing is that I started overthinking my life as it is now, and where I am heading. In a little more than a year, I'll have to decide what I want to study or do and where, with whom, how and when. Thing is: I do not have a single clue. I have all these passions I love, I love standing on scene, I love fashion, blogging, writing, photographing,... I got the chance to unite most of these items in this blog, but this isn't a job or a study and let's be realistic: it probably never will.
Second of all, I am getting tired of life. School seems so meaningless these days, and all I want to do all day is being busy with what I love: networking, fashion, blogging,... My life is turning into a routine, and that is everything I always wanted to evitate... So, to come to my point of this post, I decided to make some kind of bucket list. I give myself a year to complete it, and I will evaluate myself when this year is over. The things on this list won't always be the biggest, most spectacular ones, but they will be the things I want to achieve, in order to make everyday life a little more exciting. Let's go!


1. Go to London for a citytrip. London has been fascinating me since forever. I've been there last year for a blitz visit (one day), and this year I want to visit it my way, and discover the not so well know routes of London too.
2. Have a crazy party I'll always remember. I promise this list isn't going to be the average teenager mainstream bucket list. I just never had a real party and well, I just feel like having/ going to one this year. Enough dancing on my own!
3. Learn to sew. This may not be the most exciting thing for you guys, but for me, it is. I love working with fashion and clothes, and making my one pieces just feels like a logical next step, altough it'll probably start with a satchel for my phone or something. One has to start somewhere right?
4. Colour my hair. I love re-inventing myself and what better way to do that than to colour your hair? It gives you a totally different look in no time. I'd love to go for something white/grey, but maybe that's one huge step to take in one time. I guess I'll wait and see how I feel about it that moment!
5. Buy something designer (I always wanted). I hope I'll manage to shop a little wiser this year, and I do think that if the time, feel and money is right, I can buy something designer. (preferably Margiela, Acne, Kenzo or Van Noten) I hope to find the ultimate combo of basic yet stylish yet eyecatching, and I'll definately keep you posted about this one.
6. Get kissed.  Okay, forget what I said about the average teenager's bucket list.
7. Eat healthier. Not to get skinny or loose weight, but simply to feel better and to be... healthier! It's as simple as that.
8. Develop my style and experiment. A bit easy to say for a fashion blogger, but I really feel like experimenting a little more when it comes to fashion. Some times I feel like my clothes are not representing me or anything, and that is something I want to change. Be me, and let the streets be my catwalk!
9. Do more fashion photography. I am an amateur photographer, but some times I just don't make enough time to do more daring, fashion kind of photography. I hope to make and find more time for that in the future.
10. TAKE CHANCES. This is the last but definately not the least point of my list. Actually, it is and will be my motto this year. Take chances. In every possible way. When it comes to fashion, love, friends, photography, blogging, meeting new people or something else, take those chances, live in the moment and enjoy it, it is never coming back.


Believe it or not, but writing this all out in this post really helps. I've posted it to my Twitter already, but it is true: blogging heals my soul some times. Sorry for the overload of text and emotional junk, but I just fell like letting it all go.

Do you have any wishes or items on your bucket list? Tell me!
Thanks for reading!

8 comments:

  1. Oh zo herkenbaar! Ik had/heb dat ook, zoveel passies en niet weten welke je moet kiezen om echt verder in te gaan. MAAR: je moet er geen enkele opgeven en jezelf ontplooien in alles wat je graag doet! Ik heb gewoon snel snel communicatiemanagement gekozen omdat ik graag dingen bedenk en je daar nog veel mee uitkan! Dat bleek -gelukkig- wel een goede keuze. En dan in Amsterdam Trendwatching gedaan op erasmus wat mij nu ook heel erg aanspreekt om in verder te gaan later! Ook wil ik nog iets écht creatiefs studeren zoals styling of fotografie of grafisch ontwerp ofzo, maar dat ga ik denk ik in een paar cursussen doen! (In Londen kan je aan St. Martins trouwens zo'n cursussen doen, dat wil ik deze zomer doen!)

    Dus: alles is mogelijk! Je komt er wel uit. En middelbare school is saai, zeker als je in je laatste maandjes zit. Doorzetten en droom gewoon over wat je allemaal gaat doen als je afstudeert ;)

    xo Charlotte

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    1. Oh dankjewel voor je comment Charlotte! Ik heb nog wel even om er over na te denken maar toch... Zit gewoon even in de knoop met mezelf (klinkt dramatischer dan het is hoor), en weet niet echt welke kant ik op wil. Jouw richting lijkt me alleszins echt tof en echt iets voor jou, en die cursussen aan St. Martins lijken me SUPER interessant! Ga ik me ook es voor informeren voor binnen een tweetal jaar of zo.
      Dankje voor de support!
      xo
      Joppe

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  2. My everlasting wish is to do something with Fashion :). You've got some amazing wishes/dreams and go fulfill them babe ;-)!
    Sabrina, x.
    Dress your life.

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    1. Wat doe je nu van werk? GO AND SEARCH SOMETHING FASHION RELATED! It is never ever a wrong time to pursue your dreams :) Veel succes!
      Bedankt voor je lieve comment Sabrina :)
      xo
      Joppe

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    2. Ik heb héél lang gezocht maar nooit reactie tot nu toe, helaas.. Ik werk nu voor Laundry Day/Summerfestival/Rampage en andere outdoor/indoor festivals :) waarvoor ik voornamelijk de copy verzorg. Ook heel fijn omdat het met muziek te maken heeft maar stiekem mis ik het modegerelateerde aspect toch wel :)!
      Sabrina, x.

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    3. Klinkt nog niet zo slecht! Maar ik begrijp dat als je passie eigenlijk bij mode ligt, dat is wat je wilt doen. Logisch! Ik hoop voor jou dat t er op termijn nog van komt :)
      xo!
      Joppe

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  3. Middelbare school is echt killing als je een beetje creatief bent. Ik had hetzelfde gevoel. Ik hoop later ook iets met mode te doen en dat klinkt mss gek omdat ik architectuur doe. Toch ben ik heel blij met men keuze want mensen zijn altijd onder de indruk als ik zeg dat ik dat studeer, zelfs in de modewereld. Laat u nu zeker niet ontmoedigen door het gevoel dat alles wat je nu doet zo betekenisloos is, want wees maar zeker dat je er later veel aan zal hebben! En kansen creëer je zelf en dat ben je met deze blog al goed aan het doen!
    Go conquer the world, en laat u door niemand tegenhouden!

    Astrid

    P.S. hopelijk ontmoeten we elkaar eens snel op een event!

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  4. Architectuur lijkt me een supermooie richting, maar ik ben echt niet precies genoeg met tekenen en zo... Ik hoop dat ik een richting vind die me ligt, al heb ik nog een beetje tijd nu. Dankjewel voor je lieve woorden over mijn blog!
    Joppe
    P.S. Dat hoop ik ook echt! Kijk er naar uit je te spreken in real life :)

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